Okay. Can you say "Close enough for him to hear me?", because I could. John Cougar and John Fogerty was the most amazing concert ever. Row B, Seat 1. Absolutly amazing. Right next to the stage. I was just given er all night. I was like the one one in my little section. But man o'man it was a trip thats for sure.
Next concert...Franz Ferdinand!

Why is it so hard to be your friend?
Why take is take so much work to be friends with you?
Why does your honestly get through?
What is about us?

When we're around
it's like theres this big battle
A battle of who can be more condecending
then the other

We don't do it purposly.
I dont say to myself,
"How can I sound bigger
then this person today"
And I know you dont.
But it's our greens battling it out with each other

Thing is,
neither one is going to win.
Neither of us is right.
You can be right all you want.
You say your right.
I say,
I acknowledge your position,
this is my position.

Why did I start talking to you again?
Why don't I like the way you love me?
Why don't I stop it now?
Why do I hate the way you love me?
Are YOU a self defeating game?

When I'm around you
It's hard work
To tolerate you
To be around you
To understand you

Is it worth it?
I dont know
But I do know
When your around
I don't get what I want

What's stoping me from
not talking to you
I did it before
I can do it again

For some stupid reason
Letting you be
my mother
stop me from getting what I want

Questions - By D. rivers

I wonder now though. Can I do it. I can't remember why I started talking to you. You don't use your tools. With your kids and with the people around you. That term mother and mom mean alot to me. That's why people in my life I have given honor to by calling them mom. They have earned that title in my life. The story of this spirit. Yes, you have granted that you gave me life and for nine month, you took care of me. That may of earned you the right for me to call you mother. But you've dragged it through the mud and the dirt and had it ran over. Your not my "mother". Not anymore. Never were really.

You may of loved me, but never been there for me. Not when I wanted. You may of tried but it didn't work. I don't want to call you mother anymore. You had the honor at one time. But you have lost it. The closest you are, is a friend. Not even a best friend. Your a friend I have to work with to be a friendship. That's hanging on a by a thread.

My dads and my dad and he's earned that. He's done what I need him to do and will my father. Your not working towards it. Thelma told you somthing last year. You must of been deaf because your not doing it. I don't like being you son, just because, your my mother. What to do. What to do.

So now tell me....Why should I call you my mother? What do you have the right to? You've let me down, you've left me, you've destroyed alot of things with me. But what will it take. Am I even ready to let you EARN that respect and honor back? Am I ready? Will I ever be ready? What will it take? I do not know. I don't know when I'll know. But maybe you waiting, will make the process happen faster. This doesn't mean it wont be long.

Cuz this process. Of you earning what you shouldn't have to EARN, will and I promiss you, it will take a long time. So only time can tell. What's it going to be? Your call...

So I got this friend. Shes a nifty friend. (Wow, I said nifty) She has this way of putting a truth to it. Mind you it's her truth. Not, the truth. That makes me wonder what the truth is. But talking to her tonight made me think. The way I am around her. The way I become when she's around. My self defeating games kick in more. Alot more, when I'm around here. I don't blame her. It's because of me. I let it happen. I'm going to take responsablity now. I let those little things slide past me. When I critisize, condemn and complain. I do it alot when I'm with her. More so then anyone. Enough self defeating games. "If I do what I've always done, I'll get what I've always got"
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

My summer was amazing. I think it's the summer's I grow the most out of all the seasons. Maybe cuz I was born in the summer. I also see the spirits alot easyer in the summer. They come and go. Didnt see much this year but I know why....

This is the first time in four years that I didn't travel anywhere in the summer. As was my plan. Every year It's been canoe journey or dance trip or somthing to somewhere. I also got to spend my birthday home this year. We had a birthday party here at my house and everything. Was tons of fun.

As I told you. I went through Choices in July. I actualy went through Choices Teen Camp last year. Absolutly loved it. Really changed my life. Choices isn't like anything else I've ever experenced. This is what did it. So because I did so much and could see who I am and where my path is, I wanted to do the next step. I went and did Adult Choices last month. Now, Teen Camp was great. It was amazing. I got my cake at Teen Camp. But I wanted to get my icing and I totaly did. My dad came through with me and it completly changed his life. Our relationship hasn't been better. Ever. It's really awesome. I know for sure, I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for Choices. This amazing man right here has alot to do with Choices. Then just recently, I Coached the Teen Camp. I was one of the T.A's. Now that was the most amazing experence. Going through the program is absolutly fantastic but being a Coach and being there when other go through has the be best experence ever. I had so much fun and learned so much more.

I am now just getting ready for school. For once I'm excited. Grade 11! This is going to be my year. I'm going to do so amazing. I want to shoot high so I have even higher to shoot for grade 12. I promissed myself that in grade 8, Gr. 11 & 12 would be MY years. These are going to be MY years. I told someone one of the main reason I wanted to get back is to show those teachers and princables my true power. My true worth. I am going to shine brighter then ever before. But the REAL reason is, I want to show the person in me. I have given up too many times and failed too many times now. Not anymore!

I have joined the SR. Choir at school. That is going to be fun. I have that every other day at 7:40 in the morning. Funny thing too. After I talked to my councilor and got put in the class. I found out that I'm the only guy! This should be fun.

I know that if I do amazing and give it 180% the year will go by fast. I am ready to give it 180% and I am going to! I want to get High School over with. University is where I want to be. I'm planning on going to University of British Columbia. But they have an exchange program with 12 other Universities around the world. University of Auckland being one of them. I plan on going there. You might ask what I want to go into. Anthropology - Linguistics. And whatever else sparks my mind. I also want to do bussiness courses if I can. I am totaly ready for University.

But speaking about linguistics. Another thing I am going GUNG HO about is my own language. These next two years I am giving it my all to learn my language. My plan is to be able to "Think" in my language by the two years is over. I'm actualy doing it as apart of my training for my Coming of Age ceremony. I'll be inviting you closer to the date but I'm having at feast in two years. But among other things, learning my language is somthing I need to do. It's like, I don't have a indian name right now and I feel naked without one. Without my language I feel like I don't have my skin. Not the best feeling. I think the language is the number 1 thing to have, and to know it really well.

After New Zealand I also have a plan. When I get back I'll be turning 19 that summer. The 19 is a big thing for my people. Why you might ask. Because in 2001 when my people got Kitsalano back, we also got 9.1 million. Apart of that is everyone gets 6000$. Yes SIX THOUSAND dollers. Except if you under 19 it goes into trust and I get it then. So when I turn 19 I should be getting somewhere close to 10,000$ because of intrest. Plus other money that went into trust. Now that is going to be amazing. But here the good stuff. Starting next year I'm going to start fund raising and working. Puting money together. I'm going to take, my 10,000$ + Fundraised money + Work Money + My Salish Artwork and move to Europe two years. I'll make some good coin off my art work and I'm going to get a two year working Visa so I can work over there too. Now THAT's going to be amazing. I will be gone for about 3 years after High school. I'm going to come back for a bit but I'm mostly going to be in Europe. My sister just did this exchange program and she got a two year working Visa and worked there for 3 months.
That's what I plan on doing except for 2 years. Then come back, finish school. Start my bussiness and Start working on my dreams to change the world.

That's the low down so to awnser your question. I DID enjoy my summer....hahaha
Catch you and the flip side.
Txw Ek
Chen kwen men tumi
D Rivers

I am a mountain
I am a tall tree ohhh
I am the swift wind sweepin the country
I am a river down in the valley ohhh
I am a vition and I can seeclearly if anybody asks you who I am
Just stand up tall
Look them in the face and say!
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain pick up high
Hey I made it
I'm the worlds greatest!
I'm that little bit of hope when your backs against the rope
I can feel it
I'm the world greatest!
I am a giant
I am a eagle ohhh
I am a lion down in the jungle ohhh
I am a martching band
I am the people ohhh
I am a helping hand
I am a hero
If anybody asks you who I am
Just stand up tall look them in the face and say!
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain pick up high
Hey I made it
I'm the world greatest
I'm that little bit of hope when your backs against the rope
I can feel it
I'm the world greatest.
Ihe End

I AM A CONFIDENT DETERMINED MAN!
&
I AM A POWERFULL VALLIANT MAN WITH A PURPOSE TO SHARE HIS GIFTS

Worlds Greatest - R Kelly

I decided to start a blog. I figured with the amount of things that go through my head and my thoughts, I might as well. I've also been dying to start my own journal so here we go. It would work too with all my travels and the things that come into my head. I have alot of things to catch up on that's for sure. I've named this My Thoughts and Voice because this is where I will share that will those who read my page. My commitment is to do one blog every day. When I'm home or have access to the internet. This works because I have alot of things I have thoughts on and want you all to get a piece of my mind. I hope you enjoy my thoughts and keep coming back. Chen kwen men tumiyap