For Act. 11 we had to do a tiny project for a monologue. These are the things in my monologue and elements of it. I will eventualy add the monologue along with a forward from myself...

Monologue - Character

1.) Phych
- mad at mom for making only me go to residential school
- angery because she caused me pain
- "why doesn't she love me"
- feels ashamed to be indian, betrayed because only child sent
- wants to be loved and saved, right now feels punished (doesnt know what for)

2.) Physical Body
- (focus) looks away when reminicing (memories = pain)
- doesn't look directly
- light on his step, unsure tone in voice,
- stands like upper body(shoulders) is weighing bottom part of body down
- (evergy flow) intervals of anger and suffering and broken down.
- walking back and forth, sitting down, collasping (loss of will to stand)
- crying, tightening when angery, loose when broken down,
- anger towards mother but still wants to be rescued

3.)Where does it take place?
- right after funeral, letting go before after-life begins

4.)What just happend?
- murdered from Priest at residential school from being abused,
- @ funeral --> seen pain in mother (which showed she loved/cared), and in siblings

5.)An activity they do?
- hide, curl up, close up, go inside
- except when fellings&thoughts comes out like pandora's box
- fiddling with fingers or little things because of undecisiveness*

6.)Who do they speak to?
- mother & family(siblings)

7.)What are they talking about?
- what nuns/preist said........."mother sent you here...blame her"
- how my mother caused me the pain
- how much i blame my mother for sending me, and only me
- my ashament of being indian
- wounds caused by r.s but believes mother was cause
- feelings about my mother
- Objective ---> to tell my mother I wanted her to rescue me from the pain

8.)Monologue. "I want my mother to love me so I can love my self."

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Words
mad - distraught, enraged, resentful,
anger - rage, resentment, burn up, hurt,
pain - affliction, agony, anguish, anxiety, bitterness, heartache, gripe, torture,
betrayal - deception, dishonesty, double-cross, double-dealing, duplicity, falseness,
saved - resurrected, adored, beatified, rewarded, sacred
punished - abused, beat up, dismissed, harmed, injured, manhandled, roughed up,
reminicing - bethink, call up, cite, hark back, look back, mind, recall, recollect, remember, remind, retain,
unsure - dubious, indecisive, indeterminate, insecure, unassured, uncertain, unclear, unconfident, unconvinced, hesitant
suffering - difficulty, discomfort, distress, hardship, torment, misery, depression, pain,
broken down - banged up, incapacitated, mangled, paralyzed, powerless, useless, weak, wrecked,
collapsing - beat up, drained, drooping, droopy, drowsy, empty, finished, worn out
rescued - liberation, reclamation, recovering, recovery, redemption, release, relief
abused - helpless, tyrannized, tainted, twisted,
cared - cherished, hallowed, highly regarded, highly valued, idolized, loved,
hide - cover, hold back, hole up, hush up, keep from, keep secret, lie low, lock up, mask, shadow, shelter, shield, shroud,